salaam, how do you handle the anxiety that god will never grant one of your prayers that is very important to you, when your entire life depends on getting the thing that you want?
Wa alykum as-salaam,
"Know well, that if God (Exalted is He) puts a barrier between what you want in this world, it is because He wants to give it to you as He wishes in the Hereafter. Many people think that God is depriving them. God is free from such imperfection that he would deprive His slaves."
- Sheikh El Shaarawy